The future is now, old man.
A couple of years ago, I always think that the future will always be better and I will never like going back in time. Also I would never have the feeling of missing the good'ol days. But right now, right this moment of time and space. I don't agree with myself that much.
Apparently, life's been going too smooth for the last couple of decades for me. And life itself by nature does not always going be like that. At least not for everyone. You'll have to work really hard at it to have what you really want.
The most important thing is to have a clear mind. Alcohol, drug, cigarette, or even a lot food can stuff up your brain, render your mind almost useless. We live in a mega Information Age. Filtering the useful information from the ocean of garbage information is critical for one's well being. Stop keep yourself drunk in meaningless information. It does more harm than good. Your brain is like a hard disk. If you write too much useless information like latest gadget and rumours about movie stars, chances are you are not going to remember the professional skills that might be extremely beneficial to you in the future.
I have to admit that my heart is aching right now. Due to my eating habits, I cannot really fit in group of general public. Also I really hate those boomer-like vegans' old-school life style and religious beliefs. I mean I'm not really against them. I respect people from all kind of backgrounds and I respect individual choices. I'm just too different from everyone that I know. Maybe some of them are a bit like me. But in the end I always find out that they are different from me in major ways. While being different certainly does not mean we cannot be friends. But the toxic Chinese culture of only making friends via having meals together is hurting me too much. It is the source of unhappiness I experience today and it still continues to hurt me every single day. I have no real comment on it. I guess I'll have to just live with it.
Just a small rant of mine. Not meant for anyone to see. But not really any harm to leave it public. So there's that. If you read this, hopefully you don't get affected by my negative mood. Things really not going well for me lately. I'm not really in a good mood. I know I suppose to be happy and enjoy myself. But I really can't. Sometimes I drunk myself with some stupid game just to avoid this pain. But the pain is not going anywhere. Once the game is stopped, I'll have to deal with the harsh reality all over again.